168 posts from 2008

Hello everyone, give your blessings to Grace who just finished her op.
She's my sunshine, so ever lovable.. & she'll pull through!

Yesterday was spent reminiscing on primary school days with Joel. & then a couple of math questions at subway, (yes i love subway! =D ) before we started talking about all the HK dramas & actors & of course..bridging.

At about six, i walked to One fullerton to meet them, GRACE lydiot & haggardo! Only to be entertained by grace's cooooooool card tricks. They're really so cool & it reminds me of the days with kenneth the magician. sighs.
Then we made our way to kushinbo, because grace convinced us of skipping tuition tskkkkk.

& we waited tmd long outside the place & haggardo was very rude to the waitress haha its quite funny you just want to punch his arm. Then we chionged for the food, the crab super yummylicious! The fondue thing damn !##%^)#%$?< because the fountain wasnt even switched on & bananas always ran out. I asked the aunty to refil the bandana like 3 times..omg so paiseh. then the last time she lied to me that there were no more bananas, but five mins later.. the bananas magically appeared!!! I think she hates me.

Then i don't know what happened to the three of them. Grace keep pretending that she didn hear that we said she was cute just so that she can hear it again. Lydia cannot stop pretending to be poison ivy with the chocolate on her lips and buddy cannot stop acting out what would happened to Grace if she weere to vomit all her food in the midst of her op. I have such funny friends all vying to win golden horse award.. So hillarious we laugh until the taitai table beside us keep staring tsk tsk.

Then i had tea, yummy tea! I dont knw why but the saucer thing was stuck to the cup and then when i lifted it up to X height, the saucer dropped and it was so loud and everyone turned to look at me + laugh......... & my friends could only hide and cover their faces. TYBM

Ok the stupid buffet cost me $50, SO EXPENSIVE! but its ok, i'll take it that im paying for the great acting company hhaha!

& I think there is seriously something wrong with me. Ytd i was suppose to meet joel at 12pm but i woke up at 12 and was late for one hour.. & today i was supp to meet double Bs at 1330 but i woke up at like 2+ only when they called my house..... omg im really the pig of the year.. I need to adjust my body clock back to normal. tsk tsk tsk.. after nye that is. hahah ><
Now i know one of my NY resoultions for sure..

Oh & ytd i had long bitchy talk with xuanhan! We talked about our old campteen days, omg XX love XXXXXX. hahaha & also the countdown two years back where they ALLLL came to support my performance. xoxoxo, & we talked about all the vs guys who are in vj and he showed off how he and amanda used to be in the same badminton national team hahaha & that now he is a happy sa soccer boy with a gorgeous dancer for a gf, who said i was awesome during footnotes teeheehee.

 

campteen gathering again later for countdown & then stayover at kenneth the magician beautiful big house.. awww man.

But hey, i'd rather be in my slacks & be at budd's eating steamboat!
Im so sick and tired of dressing up.

Ok, if u had the patience to finish reading all of that, two claps to you!

After talking to H for hours, I finally feel better. I've somehow figured out what I really need, and what I don't need.

It's the end of the year..again & we must have one of those reminiscing posts, shouldnt we?
December passed by really quickly, Xmas was a blur and now its almost the 31st..

This year was pretty good in a way,
first friend that i made that would probably stay with me for a long time would be macus.

I still remember the first day of orientation & you were such a retard, you couldn play "killer move" & u looked so blur(just look at this picture) i cant believe you play basketball haha. We even played the spaggg game together & we were the fastest pair i remember. \m/ & then people started telling me ur some WOW player and i still didn believe until i saw it for myself and u were really pretty WOW. haha, & somehow we just became brothers since all of us, no actually just py and I + bballers haha always hang out together. & I will remember that you had a game on ur bday and u didn come to the bbq haha u bastard, but ur card was really nice because its hand made and the design super cool! 

Even though we only meet for dinner once in a while, i know you are always there. Of course, i am second to s***
& as u said, sincerity will move the hardest hearts! I wish you luck =D

& then there was musicfest, hahah its such a joke thinking back about it right now.. PBJ? hahaha, & now we all have the same bags we are the coolest kids around (:

Then there was the lecture clique, elaine kim grace budd & I, helping each other copy notes, especially for grace who's always doing bio/econs homework during lecture. We used to sneak in LRB and what not & pass around sweets so that we wouldnt fall asleep! & we would laugh at the chem lectures who either cant pronounce properly or is very elaborate in his gestures! Oh this reminds me of the junior meet senior thing and elaine was my only friend in class haha & JL&jastine played a trick on us and i stupidly thought i was real.. hahaha

& when elaine switched class, i was loner1991 in S51 & since budd was also loner1991 we only had each other for recessess. We would be in the library and I would be so excited whenever we sat somewhere where I could see XX!

Then there was footnotes which was one helluva experience i would never forget about it.

Practicing day and night, getting the costumes, mastering quick change and what not..
It was all so crazy & it was damn orgasmic when the curtains finally closed and everyone cheered like mad.

& there was Adivs! match support =D im an ardent fan of the basketball team & im almost there at most matches hahah laughing at how silly macus can be since he's really so WOW on court with wx yet so funny. I remember once where we were sitting among the TJcians and then we were cheering for VJ and they looked like they were going to murder us. haha, memories.. & lydia who is ever so cool on court py and I cannot stop cheering for her!

AND OMG PW.. who will ever forget pw?! the most torturous of 2008 has got to be PW. I dont even want to think back because its so scary hahaha.

What else..

Oh & getting to knw the girls in class! Jing jing is such a cutie i swear, so one of a kind! Plus her beautiful house.. ahh!! & the two tiny girls who are so cute! & not forgetting jasonteysh who has already been on my msn from way before for i dont knw what reason and i love the gossiping sessions that we used to have.. hahaha,

AND HONEY BOY! how can i ever forget honey boy? We've been friends since forever and fate allowed us to be schoolmates once again. Thank you for being such an awesome friend and thank you for lending me ur precious cat high bio notes that helped me get A1 \m/ I love you deep deep awesome monitor!

PLEASE TAKE A LOOK! i was actually talllll then, im totally standing in the last row please!!! =D

Then there was mye, promos, tuition at mavis, laughing at miss chwee..
AND OF COURSE, making friends with the notorious ah lian, jokebiao tan!!

Our first date was a study date at the slumps! OH this reminds me of the times  where we would all meet at the slumps after school to sleep/slack/study and watch the cars zoom by on the highway! & yes i remember i was late for almost an hour? and u looked like u were going to murder me hahah,plus got awkward silence and i offerd u food hahaha & we went subway for lunch before heading back to school and i helped u find ur house keys!! You've been such a wonderful friend redrockrose & im still waiting for u to intro cute guys to me, lydia has got jimmy now, & u got linfeng then what about me!!! =/ =/ sob sob, 

Then comes buddy, who became best budd, doing crazy things with me & thick and thin!

I remember all our fights for last buses and times that we missed it. It's so funny thinking back on all the things we've done, the stupid drifting, prawning dates and the 1000000 movies that we;ve watched together. We've done so many dumb things together and have come a long way. We have too many memories, typing them all out will take forever. Thank you for all the shit & This friend is for keeping.

& in just two more days, it'd be 2009. 2008 was simply wonderful, I couldnt have asked for more. There might be some regrets here and there, but that's fine because I wont make the same mistakes again. Dance.. you..friends..class..whatever. Im gonna make the best of everything in 2009 & make sure i have no regrets =D
I just have to make sure that the feeling..whatever it means, doesnt come back. Can't be that hard..right?

Yesterday, I didn think i would be ready for 2009.
Today, I think i found myself..a part of me at least, is back.

I'm just afraid of the As! =/
& I don't want everyone to leave this place for army, for uni for whatever that;s waiting for them.

I hate goodbyes.


I feel so so so relieved now, sometimes its really better to talk to a stranger.
I promise to go out with you on your 19th birthday next month only IF i'm free haha.

Phew.. what a long post. Im actually feeling lerthagic now, unlike the nights before.
Looking forward to virgin vist to  kushinbo! =D
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Goodbye 2008, I think i will think of my New year resolutions on NYE =D

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.” Eleanor Roosevelt

I wish that just for one day, you would say exactly what I wanted to hear, & I would say exactly what I have wanted to say. (ya right, as if that will happen)

But I guess that'll never happen because I'll never be brave enough.
It'll never happen because nobody ever has the balls to say what they really want to say right?
Why don't you just grow some balls?!

ahhhh fuck them alllll.

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&  I promise myself that I won't ever do it again okay?
Not ever unlesss...
NO NO NO NEVER!! I WONT EVER FUCKING DO IT AGAIN.

I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I will not do it again.
I WILL NEVER FUCKING DO IT AGAIN.

I hope that you'll be happy. You will be...right?
I hope you will be because if not, everything would have been a waste.
A total fucking waste.
You get what Im tryign to get at..right?

Still searching.. come out come out wherever you are!!
You son-of-a!!!!!

BLITHE /blaɪð, blaɪθ/[blahyth, blahyth]

You know there're some people that you just want them to shut the F up.
YOU ARE JUST ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE OMG.
get out of my sight.

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Clique chalet in 4 hours.... =D I just want to go back to good ol' cedar days where everyone loves everyone. [ well, almost]..

I love the darkness because people cant feel what you're feeling, cant see the tears.
I love the darkness because I feel vulnerable when its pitch black.

I love the darkness because its sweet and gentle.
It's quiet

I love the darkness because......WE CAN PLAY BLIND MICE HAHAHA
[im such a smarty because i invented this tradition hoho]

Ok time to start packing.. oh, I'm feeling hungry again.

Is it just me? Or does everyone wake up feeling hungry?

Oh & then theres the all time favourite heart vs head battle.
Does the heart triumph? Or the latter?
Isnt the head just trying to prevent the heart from heartaches and heartbreaks?
But the heart..
the heart that beats..
it wants it, no?

P/S: I think Santa won't give me anything this year because I've been a badassss girlfriend for like..forever?

my answer is no,
I don't regret it.

So today was the saw marathon cum mini xmas partaye at camelot! Saw is absolutely gorrrish. Love the plot though..& the pizza & laughter & gifts.

Today is a saturday AGAIN & tmr is the clique chalet!
God, how time flies when you're in a daze..

Just last week, we were having jalankayu prata while watching dumb chinese shows & wildchild at grandeur8.
omgz, time flies time flies...

The impending end of our wonderful holidays is scaring me.
I'm not ready to be 18!!!!!!

As long as you're happy, I'll be, too.

It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful lie makes me..

How long can one lie to themselves?

but it's taking so long.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

Christmas is round the corner! But I have decided not to get anyone gifts this xmas..because I don't think I can get them in time since the rest of my days are packed up till 25th dec. Ok maybe just a birthday-cum-xmas gift for my dearest HB because he has been such a darling. Calling everyone up 10000x & sending me home when he himself is so afraid of mangaleeekun. Best damn monitor \m/

I'm so glad that almost everyone turned up today =D

I love this sense of satisfaction!
+ HB & I lugged three freaking huge boxes of food & had arm cramps but it was all worth it hahaha we rock.
It's just a pity that like a couple of people had to fall sick and miss the bbq =/

Looking forward to the xmas xchange + saw marathon tmr! =D=D

macus bro ftw!!

HMMMM I think I might wake up late tmr =/

To pon or not to pon tuition...HMMMMM

Oh YES, I really love kids. Can't wait to have my own hahaha..kidding
oh maternal instincts!

Lydia & I went on a shopppppping trip ytd =D
Bought nelle along because she wants to get a new nike bag for school next year, yeah, she decided that melody was too childish..

I'm kind of happy & satisfied because i bought like helllllll lotsa stuff. I never had shopping bags so heavy before i swear!! More heels tee hee heee.. I have >10 pairs of heels at home and some I've worn like only once or never. Hmmm but u can never buy enough shoes because I sincerely think that each set of clothes should go with different heels. If i were filthy rich, I'd buy 1000000000000 pairs of shoes ha ha ha! I think my obsession with heels has got something to do with my desperation to grow taller =/

Oh & i cant wear my cute ribbon shoes anymore!! =/

Other than pampering myself, I had lydia beside me, constantly reminding me that I have gifts to buy for the gift exchange!! urgh.. what can I get under $10 that is nice?! Thank gooooooodness I had a sharp eye and caught this AWESOME $9.90 thing. Oh i bought the same gift for the gift exchange on sat and on sunday hahaha! I was thinking of using the gift i get from sat to exchange on sunday but that's just boring cause it means i'll only get one present right? hahaha, ok everyone, pray that u get my gift!!

In one day, I spent more than the amount that I earned working at treehouse for the past two months hahaa..

OH and my sister ended up buying some kiddie backpack from precious thoughts because all the backpacks at the sportshops were tooo huggeeee for her.

Ok actually I hate shopping, i Just like having new stuffs heeheehee.
No seriously, the process of picking clothes, trying clothes, walking from shop to shop, paying for it, lugging it home....is just tortureous... But then again, shopping online is stupid too because I have not touched any of the clothes that I got online.. 

So i always wish that i can get whatever things that i want just by clapping my hands hahahaha, wouldn't that be wonderful =D

If only I were filthy rich...... 
Ok this reminds me of the times were py,jer & I would dream about having a palace for a house..so huge that we'd need GPS and then we dream about all the ridiculous things hahaha cheap thrills cheap thrills..

OK I CANT WAIT FOR TODAY TO END.
Sexciting weekend ahead! 

Have you ever made a mistake & be quite damn sure that if you were to go back in time, you'd do it again and again and....again? Sometimes I look back, & I can't decide which decisions are well-made and which are 100% mistakes. There are just some things that you know you know you HAVE to go through with, if not you'll be thinking for the rest of your life, "what would've happened if i had [insert relevant thing]?"

I'm usually an optimist.
When it comes to this however, I'm especially pessimistic.
Just look around you, heartaches all over. 

Is the juice worth the squeeze?

So I guess we're back at our favourite : running away.

Love it. Love this confusion, this daze that I'm in.
No seriously, I took 82 and i thought i was on 88 & pressed the bell at the wrong stop like what the hell?!?! It was so embarrasing...& i almost missed my stops. & i didn see joycelyn waving at me on the bus until we both got off the bus & she said i was in such a daze. Plus i crossed the road when it was red man and the car horned so loudly at me I got a rude shock + embarrasment again.

On a happier note however, OGL trg with illumus has been reallly fun =D I got to sit on our OGH hahaha *grins* & drag aaron by some rope.. lols, friendship dance with nghuiwen was so funny because his ass is at my waist level lols. Very satisfying when we both got the steps right ha ha ha & i love our oose oose cheer.

Alright, I think I'm just tired.
I think its just really stupid that you'll get migraine if u sleep with wet hair.

I hope buddy doesnt die from 4 days of golf comp.

I don't think I have enough energy right now to go through yet another of those things again.

I'm in a monotonous mood.

1. OGL training was fun today, seriously.
2. Im so exhausted, both physically and mentally.
3. I have a throbbing headache.
4. I hate dancing mass dance repeatedly.
5. I love the rain.
6. I love running in the rain.
7. Im troubled.
8. I need to walk all my troubles away but no. 2&3 stopped me from walking.
9. I need time alone.
10. I need to be away from you.
11. What the hell have i done?
12. What the hell are we doing here?
13. I think im going to become a recluse, haha ok that's impossible.
14. I can't think straight.
15. I need a break.

I'm stopping at fifteen because... i took bus 15 for the first time today.

And we laugh till we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Glowing embers lie across the sky